ace’s blog

A week goes by and I don’t have anything to update about!

Work is going well. I’m close to getting my function to communicate with a webservice so that is cool.

Meri and I haven’t had anymore arguments so that is really good. I think the medicine is really starting to effect my mood, in a good way I suppose. I don’t feel as down as I used to. We’ll see how this progresses.

I’m doing very well with working out. I’m starting to wear my muscle shirts again and I’m usually pretty conservative about wearing them. I must be feeling pretty good about how I look again.

The only thing that hasn’t gone anywhere is my recommendation letters. That, and taking the GRE exam, haven’t had any progress as of late.

Aaron is still cute as hell. He says ‘socks on’ whenever he pulls out a pair of socks from his drawer and wants to put them on. It makes me laugh everytime he says it. He thinks they are called ‘socks on’ instead of just ‘socks’. It’s so adorable. I’m laughing thinking about it. He’s so damn cute!

It’s not over, just had to think about it more. I got a letter from the UoM saying all they need now are my recommendation letters and my GRE test score before they let me know if I’m accepted to the program.

So Meri and I had another knock-down, drag-out argument again. Too many lately that nobody knows about except us, the cat and dog and unfortunately, Aaron for most of them. This one started out like most do, about something minor and just escalated into a lot of stupid stuff. The outcome of this argument was me taking yesterday off from work to go to the doctor and talk to him about depression. The test I took in his office told he and I that I was moderately to moderately-severely depressed. So now I’m on Lexapro to make me more zombie-like and hopefully take the edge off of my increasingly emotional state. Hopefully it works and I become more liveable/likeable to Meri.

On my way to Sports Authority after my doctors appointment yesterday, I was taking a left onto Poplar and was the second car in to be pulling away from the light when the car in front of me got T-boned by a large tow-truck! I’ve never seen a car get into an accident before, especially one that bad. I stopped to see if I could help the people out. I got out of my truck, remembered that I had a cell phone so I called 911 and instead of talking to someone immediately, I got a message saying that all operators were busy! Finally, I got a live person and told them where the accident was. Two other people stopped at the scene as well, one of whom was an off-duty fire fighter. There were 3 people in the Chevy Impala that got hit, ages 20 – 23. The one on the passenger side in the front seat was trapped by the dash and the passenger door. They were all pretty severely hurt but that kid got the worst of it! After about 20 minutes or so, 3 ambulances were at the scene and had 3 of the 4 accident victims ready to be taken away. At first, I was pretty pissed off that the tow-truck driver didn’t get out of his truck to check on the car he hit but it turned out that he hit his head on the steering wheel and his back was hurting. That anger went away after I learned that. I felt like the cops and the first EMTs on the scene were not adequately responsive to the victims. If it had been my wife and son in the car just laying there and me yelling very respectively to the EMTs on the scene “help him sir, please help him quickly” and the EMT, while writing on his report responding “we’re moving as quickly as two people can move”, I would have been more than pissed. The driver of the ambulance seemed thoroughly confused on how to position the hard-plastic orange board onto the stretcher. As a new resident of Memphis/Bartlett, I am not impressed with what I saw yesterday. It appeared to me that the cops and EMTs were more interested about getting their reports written than they were about getting help for these kids. I don’t think it was a racism thing: the kids in the car were black, the tow-truck driver was white, the 2 cops were black and 5 of the 6 EMTs I saw were white, the other was black. I left after 40 minutes and after I gave the cop my info to contact me. I hope the tow-truck company gets sued for a ton of money.

After a day like that, I was more than ready to take my not-so-happy ass to bed. It took me a while to fall asleep and while I was laying there, my legs were just jumping all over the place. I guess seeing that accident and also putting my moderately depressed ass on some pills had some effect on me after all. I hope everything works out.

This weekend, we had our first ice storm. Two weekends ago it snowed, approximately 5 inches and this past weekend, we got ice. Since our driveway never gets direct sunlight, I’ve learned that I have to de-snow/ice it. Well that sucks, a lot! I was only out there for a total of 75 minutes with a shovel and some pent-up aggression but it finally came off. The parts that I couldn’t get off eventually melted away. Thank you 50 degree weather (after 3 days in the teens!)

Friday afternoon, it snowed…a lot! It was great! I’ve never lived somewhere that it snowed before. Aaron was pretty excited about it too, he called it “nosh”. It was adorable. He got to build a snowman with his mommy. I think it snowed about 4 or 5 inches. There were a lot of accidents in Memphis from what I heard. One of Meri’s friends at school made a funny comment about Memphians: “Stupid Memphis drivers, just add water”.

Meri has been talking to me this morning, being pissy like I suspected she would be after she unintentionally decided to put me down last night while we were watching TV. I figured it was going to turn into one of those horrible weekends like we’ve been pretty infamous for as of late.

It started out as her just telling me that I’m not able to multi-task as well as her. It annoyed me since I took that personally but whatever, I’m not going to start an argument over something that I truly don’t care about. This morning, she calls me and tells me that she thinks I should just leave work at 2 or something early b/c it’s supposed to snow here today (3-5 inches). I told her that I didn’t drive and she got upset b/c I was supposed to go to Wild Oats after work to get milk-free chocolate for her to cook with Aaron this weekend. I completely forgot about going to Wild Oats and even driving to work b/c it wasn’t my turn to drive (I carpool with someone). I forgot b/c I was up with Aaron twice last night, once at 10:40pm and again at 11:40pm. The first time I just put him back to sleep but then he woke up again an hour later so I figured he wasn’t feeling well so I stayed up with him until he fell asleep. That took about 30 minutes so after that was done, I was wide awake but still tired. I went to bed but couldn’t fall asleep for a while and once I did fall asleep, it felt like I only got about 10 minutes of sleep once my alarm started going off. So I was tired and woke up with enough time to get ready for work and find something to eat for lunch so I didn’t waste any money buying anything from across the hall. So this morning, Meri’s on the phone with me trying to express her frustrations but I’m at work and can’t fucking talk about it! She tells me that I don’t help around the house and all I do is play video games. She decides she wants to hire a maid service and we’ll find the money “somewhere”. Well, right now, I feel it is best for me to not go to school b/c if I’m not helping with housework now then I’m certainly not going to be very helpful if I’m upstairs doing homework. I’m in a bad fucking mood and don’t feel like doing anything. I’ve got my headphones on listening to heavy metal type music. In college, I referred to it as anger music b/c it only serves to keep me in a bad mood and fuel my pissed off attitude. Meri thinks it’s stupid for me to not go to school but I think that’s the only way I’m going to be able to help around the house. So I’m not going to get my masters in computer science because housework needs to be done and we all know that is more fucking important than making yourself feel good right! Fuck this. I’m really pissed off and wanna stay that way for a LONG ASS FUCKING TIME.

2 item down, three to go!

[X] (1) Apply to UoM.

[X] (2) Request official transcript from UNF.

[ ] (3) Take GRE (should happen in April 2006).

[ ] (4) Two Recommendation Letters. My current choices are my immediate manager, Jeff Michael, and his boss, Gaby Sgolombis.

[ ] (5) Wait.

Well Valentines Day 2006 is right around the corner and I’ve been giving Meri’s gift from me a lot of thought. We have been going through a rough patch for a while, resulting in me trying to figure out what to change in my life (I chose my career). I can’t thing of what to get her to show her that I truly want our relationship to work. I know that she wants some diamond studded earrings but I know that we truly can’t afford that at this moment. I’m trying to thing of an alternative to that. I was thinking maybe something handmade? She always makes me these gifts, either for Valentines Day or Christmas or my birthday, and they are really cool! I am just not that creative when it comes to making things or even ideas for what to make.

I just sent my application to the University of Memphis! YAY!!!

1 item down, several to go!

[X] (1) Apply to UoM.

[ ] (2) Request official transcript from UNF.

[ ] (3) Take GRE (should happen in April 2006).

[ ] (4) Two Recommendation Letters. My current choices are my immediate manager, Jeff Michael, and his boss, Gaby Sgolombis.

[ ] (5) Wait.